Today was a day filled with progress. Katy’s numbers are still stable, and her color is great. Though it doesn’t sound like a lot is happening, that is a really good thing. In situations such as this one, once a certain level of success is achieved, it is better to stay steady and slowly progress. It is far easier on her system now, and she is resting well. The nurses changed her dressings, bathed her, washed her hair, and turned her to look out of the windows to see a beautiful, sunny day in Dallas. Katy’s room overlooks the Dallas skyline, and Katy loves seeing the outdoors. She passed her spontaneous breathing test, and they will look at taking her tube out tomorrow. All of her drains are removed from her abdomen, and she is no longer passing blood. Her necrotic tissue on her left hip is not being treated right now because it is showing signs that her body may be processing it. They feel that she might not need surgery on it, but might just require debriedment (speeling?) We will wait and see, but I hope that her body continues to kick this thing’s @$$!
I have tried, with this blog, to concentrate on the positive of this situation. I would like, just this once, to address some e-mails that I have been receiving. First, I would love to thank the numerous people who find my daily ramblings inspirational. Though this started out as a way for me to inform our loved ones of Katy’s progress, I am so glad to be connecting with all of you. As much as you say I am helping you, you are helping me. I smile every time I open an e-mail/comment from another person cheering on my Katy! The e-mails I would like to address, though, are the dozen or so suggesting that I should just “let Katy go,” or “Katy wouldn’t want to live like this.” To those people I would say that you really don’t know my wife. As I stated in an earlier blog, most people think we are crazy. How on earth do a massage therapist /natural/ granola girl and a wrestling/musician/hang out in smoky bars guy survive each other? They fail to see that we share a deep love of LIFE together. Though Katy and I have different paths to how we experience life, we both appreciate the other’s ability to take risks, and to love without fear of being hurt. Katy DOES want to live (she told me so), and she will overcome this. This is nothing but another chapter in “the Adventures of Katy and Al.”
To set the record straight, Katy’s brain is fully functioning, her kidneys are fully functioning, her liver enzymes are close to returning to normal, her thyroid is good and functioning, her lungs are in great shape, her heart is in great shape, her hormone levels are as good (if not better) than most 24 year olds (and that is post-pardom, and after a hysterectomy), and her digestive system is back on track. “Letting her go” is not an option. Please know that my saying that is not my selfish wants, but a realistic look at what Katy would want. If things were way different (brain damage, life-support forever, etc), then I would be having to make some quality-of-life decisions. As of now, the decisions I am making are for the purposes of getting her well enough to get back to Houston so that she can be a mom to our 3 wonderful kids, and to see her succcesfully complete her rehab. Katy will always be remembered as the greatest massage therapist…ever..but she is way more than that. As rehab progresses, Katy will have thhe chance to study natural medine, or anything else she chooses. I know her. She will not want to sit still.
I am not unrealistic in thinking that Katy will have her down times, and that she has some very tough rehab in her future, but I know how tenacious she is. Katy will rise to this challenge. She will prevail, and she will be kicking my butt one day soon.
Others of you have called or written to me being very sad at our situation. Though it is not what we would have chosen to happen, it has, indeed, happened. There is nothing we can do about it now, and to waste any energy on battling what you cannot change would be just that..a waste of energy. We are where we are, and we will move forward from here. Take the time to smile as you think about her first night home. Think about her talking with friends at an MOYC event. Think about her and I celebrating our 11 year anniversary this July 31st. Katy is my hero, my redemtion, and Katy will be a role model, and an inspiration, for our kids. She is the toughest, and sweetest, person I have ever met (she has to be to tolerate me), and she will find a way to make all natural, organic, low calorie, high in antioxidant, naturally sweetened lemonade out of the lemons we have been handed. I will be the happiest man on earth just to drink the lemonade along side of her.
Thanks for today go to Megan from the Dallas moms’ group for the awesome meal, and to Dr. Tutt for succesfully taking on the task of trying to return my vertabrae to their god-intended position. I’m sure sleep will come much easier now that my back is no longer in the shape of a “Z.” Chris is on his way here, and Michelle and Arielle will be here tomorrow..YEAH!! My mom and sister are eating my mom’s homemade lasagna with the kids (I am JEALOUS!), and loving on the animals for me. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Make sure to hug and kiss your kids. Tell your spouses, siblings, parents, and friends that you love them. Also, take the time to love yourselves.
Love to you all,